Confessions of a Love Junkie

Alas, BluePlasticStraw is one letter too long to be a username. :(

But, I am pleased to announce that I'm moving anyway. The only thing better than a blue plastic straw is a blue curly straw.

This will be the last post on this journal.

I'm so burnt out on school and work I could just scream.  Thank god it's my last day for both.  Three glorious weeks off with nothing to do but review for the GRE.  That will be a pleasurable change of pace frankly.  Multiple choice questions where there is only one correct answer and a logical way of finding it.  Relief for a brain overtaxed with analysis and creativity. 

I'm meant to go to Seattle this weekend for my sister's birthday party, but I'm feeling really anti-social.  I just want to stay home and sleep. 

I release you, my beautiful and terrible
fear. I release you. You were my beloved
and hated twin, but now, I don't know you
as myself. I release you with all the
pain I would know at the death of
my children.

You are not my blood anymore.

Oh, you have choked me, but I gave you the leash.
You have gutted me but I gave you the knife.
You have devoured me, but I laid myself across the fire.

I take myself back, fear.
You are not my shadow any longer.
I won't hold you in my hands.
You can't live in my eye, my ears, my voice
my belly, or in my heart my heart
my heart     my heart

But come here, fear
I am alive and you are so afraid
                                               of dying.

excerpted from a poem by Joy Harjo

The upside of 100F degree weather three days in a row?  I can eat (soy) ice cream for dinner and not feel guilty.  Cold is a food group, right?

So last night was a new one.  I got stood up after being invited to someone's house.

Control rods are pulled
Chain reactions can't be stopped
A lust Chernobyl

Too hot

Can't move

Sent ice cream stat

It's supposed to be over 100F here AGAIN later in the week. What happened to those temperate summers we're supposed to have here in the Northwest? Mainly I worry about the felines. I can go hide out in the air conditioned library to get relief, the kitties don't have that luxury. Last time it got hot I considered wetting them down, but I think that would stress them out more than the heat.

This past weekend was a lot of fun. A friend from Ok Cupid was in town and what was planned to be a movie and dinner on Saturday turned into hanging out all Saturday night and most of Sunday. I didn't get nearly as much school work done as I had planned, but it was worth it. Much amusement was had.

Less than two weeks left in summer session. Time flies when you're stressed out! I need to get away for a couple weekends later in the summer/fall, just to have some fun. I haven't done enough of that.

And now, a chance for my friends to express an opinion which will influence my future! Relax, it's not all that exciting. I created this LJ about a month before I decided to start using BluePlasticStraw just about everywhere online. I would like to change my username here, for the sake of consistency and because I don't want "vegan" to be a main part of my identity (for a variety of reasons).  It costs $15 to change a username.  What is your opinion on a name change?  Should I just quit worrying about it? 

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

× I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	× I own lots of books.  (I seriously downsized my book collection the last time I moved.)
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.  (I like watching other people play them, but I suck at them and I'm not patient enough to not suck.)	✓ I've tried marijuana.  (Not a big fan. Makes my brain feel mushy.)
✓ I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.  (damnhellass)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  (moderate to severe major depression ------> mostly stable and happy)	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

( it goes on... )